Blog Relaunch!

Welcome Loves! It’s been a long time since I’ve last written that I decided it was time to dust off the keys and start again! I had a vision in my mind of how I wanted things to go and let’s just say, nothing ever goes as planned.

I realized that once I started this Journey that I really never had a “niche” and I was often finding myself quickly discouraged. I became overwhelmed and just felt like I was all over the place. So I stopped. I went back n forth constantly in my mind whether or not I should continue or just stop.

The thing is, I couldn’t get this blog out of my mind. I couldn’t shake the feeling that I just couldn’t give up. I couldn’t just let it go. I just knew this was something I had to do. So I reached out and got some advice on what my next step should be.

So after doing so, I realized what my “niche” or “theme” should be.

I want this blog to be about my Journey. My Journey hasn’t been easy. But I’ve wanted to share it in hopes to inspire others.

My blog will be about Self Love and Self Care. I’ll also be covering Mental Health, Fitness, and awareness to different causes.

Along the way I will be sharing my challenges with my Mental Health of Depression, Anxiety Disorder and PTSD. I will be sharing my story.

EVERYONES STORY DESERVES TO BE TOLD

I’ll be sharing uplifting messages and quotes to help all of us struggling to keep going. I will share ways of Self Love and Self Care. Im also going to be sharing my fitness journey. Being comfortable in your own body to me is a form of self love & self care. I haven’t felt confident in my body in so long and it’s time that I make a change. I’d love if you came along with me.

I asked on my Instagram for everyone to share an awareness that means something to them. There are so many out there that don’t get enough attention. There is such a stigma with Mental Illness that I want to break that. I want to break ALL stigmas and share awareness.

I have decided to share awareness by making bracelets. I have researched their awareness colors and I’ve added a small charm to them. Some that I have already done are

  • Mental Illness
  • Domestic Violence
  • Autism
  • Child/ Teen Sexual Assault & Abuse.
  • Lupus
  • Fibromyalgia

I would love if you have a Awareness or Cause that means something to you or a loved one to please share and let me know and I will make as many bracelets you’d like. There is no charge to these. I want to break ALL stigmas and spread awareness.

Thank you for coming along with me on this Journey. There is so much hatred in the world and I don’t want anyone to confront it on their own. Battling Mental Illness has enough darkness in that alone. I want to create a safe place for us to share our stories, to share our struggles and to break all stigmas.

10 Quotes To Keep Going

Welcome back Loves!! So, I’ve always been the type of person who just absolutely LOVES quotes! I could spend hours looking them up. And thanks to Pinterest, that has happened on many occasions. I often find myself connecting with quotes because I simply can not find the right words to explain how I feel sometimes. Don’t you just hate that? You really want to express how you feel, but the words just won’t come out?

• With struggling with Depression and especially Anxiety, I would constantly be looking up quotes to help me keep going. Family and Friends would give me advice or encouraging words, but I would always find myself looking up Motivational Quotes or Strength and Faith Quotes and it would really really help me.

So down below, I am going to share with you all 10 of my favorite quotes that has helped me to keep going. I hope that whoever is reading this will be able to use these as daily reminders when things get though. Because trust me they will, but you CAN and WILL get through it.

10. This is so true. Just the littlest step can lead you in the direction towards something greater. 9. Even if you don’t believe in God, Life will always work it’s self out. You just have to HOLD ON and you will see everything fall into place.

8. Sometimes when things are just NOT working in our favor, we need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. Sometimes we are the ones who need to make the change for things to get better.

7. Now this one is a GOOD one. We can not and I repeat can not let our troubles break us. No matter how hard it gets, you have to remember life still goes on so things will change. Don’t let these troubles define you. Stay strong.

6. This quote here I’ve had for YEARS. It’s really all about just making small changes and really everything will fall into place.

5. Oh yes, be gentle with yourself! I would often beat myself up because I would feel like I was losing control of everything. Just be gentle with yourself, you really are doing the BEST you can.

4. Yes. Be Your Own Kind Of Beautiful. I always thought I had to change who I was because of some struggles I had to go through. But those struggles are apart of me. Apart of MY story. They made me WHO I am. So, I’m my own kind of beautiful.

3. Storms really don’t last forever. If you told me this years ago, I’d laugh. I would tell you “Yeah right, things will NEVER get better”. Guess what? They DO.

2. I don’t think anyone is ever really “broken”. So even when you feel broken, just remember “You grow through what you go through”. So no matter what, you can still light up the world.

1. YOU ARE ENOUGH. No matter what happens. No matter what life throws at you, you are enough. There is no one else on this earth like YOU. The world NEEDS you. Please always remember YOU are enough!

Fitness Update #3.. Mind Over Matter.

I have one word to describe this week. WOW!!! 

I made it through the first week of SWEAT by Kayla Itsines! This week was defiantly a challenge.  I had my fair shares of ups and downs. Of wanting to quit and give up. I learned a few things however during this week one.

  1. I am capable of more than what I think.
  2. That it’s not going to go PERFECT to the T, but it’s ok that it doesn’t.
  3. My results will differ from other people in the SWEAT community.
  4.  It takes time and patience.

On Monday, the first day I was suppose to work out my legs. I did. But I quickly started to beat myself up because I couldn’t do all the exercises perfectly. And I couldn’t do all the reps either. I started to feel very nauseas and I thought for sure I was going to be sick. But most of all my ribs started really hurting me. (For those of you who don’t know, back in Oct/Nov I fractured a couple ribs when I was really sick with my lung). I felt so discouraged. I wanted to cry. I felt like a failure because I couldn’t even finish day ONE. I started to regret my decision of purchasing this program.

I laid on my Yoga mat literally talking to myself. Talking out loud how much of a mistake a made. How much I was a failure. Then it hit me. I was able to do more than the day before. The day before and many days before hand I wasn’t even exercising. But the little I was able to accomplish, was more than I ever did before. I immediately snapped out of it. I had already made PROGRESS.   I needed to be MORE proud of myself. And I was. I knew I could keep going. Even though others were able to finish it 100% on day one, it was perfectly ok that I couldn’t. As long as I kept trying and moving.

bf2dc78fae8af5748127e35388f0f860.jpgAs the week went on, I was able to complete ALL of my exercises. I noticed by day three, that I was mentally and physically getting stronger. Moments when it became really hard, I would just talk out loud to myself that I could do it. Positive self talk really does make a difference! I wanted to do everything so perfectly. To follow all of my exercises and meal plans to a T. I learned quickly that it just wasn’t going to happen and that it was ok. That I needed to accept that. There was days where I didn’t have time to put my lunch together or my breakfast, so I would make smoothies and for lunch I would order something because I was at work and I made sure I ordered something that was healthy and with a lot of vegetables. One thing I’ve noticed this week is that I’m starting to crave more fruits and vegetables. That is something I’ve never done before. I guess the more you eat healthy and clean the more your body will crave what is good for you.

So even though I wasn’t able to eat all of my meals that was planned, I was still able to make healthy choices to get food. I was able to finish all of my exercises this week which makes me so happy. I honestly thought it was going to be a breeze jumping back into working out. I use to do it all the time back in the day, and I was a runner so I thought for sure it would be a piece of cake. I was wrong. A lot has happened to my body since then and it is taking me a little longer. And guess what?! THAT IS PERFECTLY OKAY as long as I keep trying and pushing myself. I need to have patience with myself and take it one day at a time. I was beating myself up because I would see other people’s  “Transformation Pictures” and I would start to doubt myself and think I wasn’t going to get to that point because I wasn’t able to complete all the exercises to a T.  Even though I had to modify a couple workouts because I have a bad back, I made sure I kept moving and I was able to do it.unnamed.jpg

So I am excited to say…… I worked out for 6 days STRAIGHT and it felt SO SO good. Don’t mind my goofy picture I took Saturday after I finished my 6th workout. I was so happy. I was on cloud 9 and just so proud of myself. I am so glad I didn’t give up and that I kept pushing myself. I still have a long road in front of me to get to the point of where I want to be. So now onto WEEK TWO!!

 

 

 

 

xoxo

 

Keep Moving Forward

If I told you how many times I have started to write this blog and then erased it, you’d be surprised. I had a few ideas to talk about, but I kept coming back to one certain topic. “Giving up”. How many of us at some point in our life’s just wanted to give up?  We felt like no matter what we did it just wasn’t getting us anywhere? That you couldn’t catch a break because one thing after another kept happening to you? That you kept putting good out into the world only to receive more negative? I HAVE! 

Life can sometimes beat you up like the wind does on a windy day. Where you are doing everything in your power to hold on, to plant your feet and to ride out that wind. After all is said and done, everything is just a mess. Do you give up when that happens or do you just brush yourself off (fix your hair haha) and keep moving forward?

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There has been many times in my life where I just felt like I was caught in one big wind storm. Nothing was going right no matter how hard I tried. Toxic people kept coming into my life that just wouldn’t help and they would knock me off course and I wouldn’t know how to get back on the right course. As that kept happening I just felt like I was drowning.

It is such a scary feeling when you just want to give up. When I was younger and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I just wanted to give up. I had so much going on at the time, and now I had to deal with that? It just became too overwhelming and I wanted to just give up. I did NOT care at all what I did or what life was going to bring me. At that point I figured my life was screwed up either way forever that there was no point in going out and trying to find happiness or to even fight the fight of crawling out of the dark hole I was in. I just did not care. Period.

However that’s when I came across the movie “Meet The Robinsons” (You’ll find out more about that movie in my last post “My Favorite 13 Movies) In the entire movie one sentence really stood out to me, “Keep Moving Forward”. I realized that no matter what happens in my life , I just have to keep moving forward because eventually I could get to my happy place. And I did which took YEARS. All I had to do was keep going.

So my advice to you, is Keep Moving Forward. No matter how hard it gets, no matter how challenging this life and world can get, I PROMISE you it does get better. It might not get better right at this very moment but it will. Don’t give up. Hang on. Hold on tight. Fight for it. Fight for that happy ending because it will come.  I would never imagine my life where it is right now a few years ago. If you told me I would of laughed. But I am so glad I didn’t give up because I wouldn’t of learned the things I’ve been taught. And most importantly I wouldn’t of learned who I really am. Hang on, I promise its worth it.

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