Blog Relaunch!

Welcome Loves! It’s been a long time since I’ve last written that I decided it was time to dust off the keys and start again! I had a vision in my mind of how I wanted things to go and let’s just say, nothing ever goes as planned.

I realized that once I started this Journey that I really never had a “niche” and I was often finding myself quickly discouraged. I became overwhelmed and just felt like I was all over the place. So I stopped. I went back n forth constantly in my mind whether or not I should continue or just stop.

The thing is, I couldn’t get this blog out of my mind. I couldn’t shake the feeling that I just couldn’t give up. I couldn’t just let it go. I just knew this was something I had to do. So I reached out and got some advice on what my next step should be.

So after doing so, I realized what my “niche” or “theme” should be.

I want this blog to be about my Journey. My Journey hasn’t been easy. But I’ve wanted to share it in hopes to inspire others.

My blog will be about Self Love and Self Care. I’ll also be covering Mental Health, Fitness, and awareness to different causes.

Along the way I will be sharing my challenges with my Mental Health of Depression, Anxiety Disorder and PTSD. I will be sharing my story.

EVERYONES STORY DESERVES TO BE TOLD

I’ll be sharing uplifting messages and quotes to help all of us struggling to keep going. I will share ways of Self Love and Self Care. Im also going to be sharing my fitness journey. Being comfortable in your own body to me is a form of self love & self care. I haven’t felt confident in my body in so long and it’s time that I make a change. I’d love if you came along with me.

I asked on my Instagram for everyone to share an awareness that means something to them. There are so many out there that don’t get enough attention. There is such a stigma with Mental Illness that I want to break that. I want to break ALL stigmas and share awareness.

I have decided to share awareness by making bracelets. I have researched their awareness colors and I’ve added a small charm to them. Some that I have already done are

  • Mental Illness
  • Domestic Violence
  • Autism
  • Child/ Teen Sexual Assault & Abuse.
  • Lupus
  • Fibromyalgia

I would love if you have a Awareness or Cause that means something to you or a loved one to please share and let me know and I will make as many bracelets you’d like. There is no charge to these. I want to break ALL stigmas and spread awareness.

Thank you for coming along with me on this Journey. There is so much hatred in the world and I don’t want anyone to confront it on their own. Battling Mental Illness has enough darkness in that alone. I want to create a safe place for us to share our stories, to share our struggles and to break all stigmas.

10 (More) Facts About Me

Welcome back!!! So I asked YOU to decide what I should make my next Blog Post about. Everyone chose “10 Facts About Me”

So then I thought it would be a good idea to let you all decide what you wanted to know about me. I love the questions that were asked!!! I’ll have to do this again in the future! So here goes…. enjoy!

1. My Favorite Place To Visit?

This is really tricky. I could answer this in many ways. But I’m going to go with what FIRST came to mind. Indiana! I have a ton of family there and whenever I go to visit I just feel like I’m home! I’ll actually be going there soon, so keep an eye out for that Post!!

Oh and the next runner up is DISNEY!!

2. Favorite Make Up Products?

Ive always wanted to learn how to apply makeup right and also tips and tricks on how to get really creative. I think it’s fascinating how some people do their makeup. I have a couple Make Up products that I just LOVE.

“Too-Faced Better Than Sex Mascara” I’ve had people ask me if I have False Eyelashes on because they make my eyelashes so full!

“Cover FX” Honestly I love all their products! But this Setting Powder is AMAZING. I have naturally oily skin so after I apply my foundation, I put this on. It helps control my oil and also a little goes a LONG way!

Cicapir’s Tiger Grass Color Correcting

I have redness from previous acne and really just sensitive skin. I use to NEVER go out in public without having foundation on. But if I’m not in a breakout, I can just put this on and that’s it! This has really helped the redness clear up. I’ll always have this on hand!

( All three of these products you can find at Sephora or Ulta!)

3. Favorite supplement?

Alright so something I haven’t talked about too much yet (but I will) is a disease that I have. It’s called Gastoparesis which is paralysis of the stomach. It’s VERY hard to eat certain food and really each time I eat it’s like Russian Roulette. Sometimes I am unable to eat a meal so I have to have a supplement. Having this illness creates a lot of trips to the ER! Also my body isn’t able to absorb nutrients as easily so with this supplement I am able to!

I would honestly be SO lost without this! I always ALWAYS have some on hand. This has literally saved me in many ways and it’s delicious!

4. What Motivates Me Each Day?

I had to think about this. It’s just a loaded question. Honestly my past. I know we shouldn’t live in the past, but I have been through SO MUCH that it helps me stay focused on the NOW and appreciate my life NOW. I hope that makes sense. I have come such a long way (I’ll go more into detail in a later post) that I just use that to keep me going.

5. Favorite Personal Trainer?

I follow Kayla Itsines. I have her book and I also follow her app called SWEAT. This program kicks your behind but it works. All her recipes in her books are DELICIOUS. I’ll be honest though, I haven’t worked out in awhile but I’m going to be starting that back up VERY soon. (Stay tuned!) The whole SWEAT community is AMAZING. They help me to keep going.

6. One Thing People Would Be Surprised To Know About Me?

Again a loaded question! I have a very interesting story for my life. One of the things people would be surprised to know is that 11 years ago, I fractured two of my bottom vertebrae’s in my back. I fell in the shower and had to do about 7 months of Physical Therapy. Wasn’t fun and I still feel the effects of it today.

7. Favorite Childhood Memory?

I’m a Grandma’s Girl. To the T. All my memories with her are my favorite. But this one takes the cake. One year it was around Valentine’s Day. I made my box for school and was so excited for the candy and valentines but I got VERY sick with Strep throat and had to miss out. I remember laying there watching a movie and she knocked on my bedroom door and I looked over and she had one of those GALLON sized ziplock bags in her hand FILLED with candy for me. Anything you can think of was in that bag. Even hard candy to help my throat. She didn’t want me to miss out. To this day, that’s been my FAVORITE Valentine’s Day!

8. Favorite Song At The Moment?

This question got me GOOD. I’m a song person. I’m constantly listening to music. I always relate things to songs. So this is so so hard to answer! But I’d have to say:

I love ALL the song from this movie. This movie is one of my favorites now but this song just makes me feel good and makes me get up and dance!

9. Favorite Travel Destination & Why?

So I haven’t been the one to travel a lot. And if I do it’s close to home. As I have gotten older I’ve been CRAVING to travel. So I’ve promised myself that I’ll do just that. But my favorite place to travel to would be Egypt and France. I love learning about Egypt and especially Ancient Egypt. I am French and want to be able to go and experience my culture.

10. What Celebrity Do I Admire?

Lucille Ball. I love watching I Love Lucy. Years ago when I went into a deep depression I started watching the show. Little did I know that it would change my entire life. I felt instantly connected to her and that I could relate to her on different levels. This show has really saved me and the more I’ve learned about Lucille Ball the more I just admire her. Interesting Fact:

I’m actually related to her!!

I hope you all have enjoyed learning about me a little more. If you are still curious I have another Blog Post “50 Facts About Me” where you can go and find out more!

10 Quotes To Keep Going

Welcome back Loves!! So, I’ve always been the type of person who just absolutely LOVES quotes! I could spend hours looking them up. And thanks to Pinterest, that has happened on many occasions. I often find myself connecting with quotes because I simply can not find the right words to explain how I feel sometimes. Don’t you just hate that? You really want to express how you feel, but the words just won’t come out?

• With struggling with Depression and especially Anxiety, I would constantly be looking up quotes to help me keep going. Family and Friends would give me advice or encouraging words, but I would always find myself looking up Motivational Quotes or Strength and Faith Quotes and it would really really help me.

So down below, I am going to share with you all 10 of my favorite quotes that has helped me to keep going. I hope that whoever is reading this will be able to use these as daily reminders when things get though. Because trust me they will, but you CAN and WILL get through it.

10. This is so true. Just the littlest step can lead you in the direction towards something greater. 9. Even if you don’t believe in God, Life will always work it’s self out. You just have to HOLD ON and you will see everything fall into place.

8. Sometimes when things are just NOT working in our favor, we need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. Sometimes we are the ones who need to make the change for things to get better.

7. Now this one is a GOOD one. We can not and I repeat can not let our troubles break us. No matter how hard it gets, you have to remember life still goes on so things will change. Don’t let these troubles define you. Stay strong.

6. This quote here I’ve had for YEARS. It’s really all about just making small changes and really everything will fall into place.

5. Oh yes, be gentle with yourself! I would often beat myself up because I would feel like I was losing control of everything. Just be gentle with yourself, you really are doing the BEST you can.

4. Yes. Be Your Own Kind Of Beautiful. I always thought I had to change who I was because of some struggles I had to go through. But those struggles are apart of me. Apart of MY story. They made me WHO I am. So, I’m my own kind of beautiful.

3. Storms really don’t last forever. If you told me this years ago, I’d laugh. I would tell you “Yeah right, things will NEVER get better”. Guess what? They DO.

2. I don’t think anyone is ever really “broken”. So even when you feel broken, just remember “You grow through what you go through”. So no matter what, you can still light up the world.

1. YOU ARE ENOUGH. No matter what happens. No matter what life throws at you, you are enough. There is no one else on this earth like YOU. The world NEEDS you. Please always remember YOU are enough!

Keep Moving Forward

If I told you how many times I have started to write this blog and then erased it, you’d be surprised. I had a few ideas to talk about, but I kept coming back to one certain topic. “Giving up”. How many of us at some point in our life’s just wanted to give up?  We felt like no matter what we did it just wasn’t getting us anywhere? That you couldn’t catch a break because one thing after another kept happening to you? That you kept putting good out into the world only to receive more negative? I HAVE! 

Life can sometimes beat you up like the wind does on a windy day. Where you are doing everything in your power to hold on, to plant your feet and to ride out that wind. After all is said and done, everything is just a mess. Do you give up when that happens or do you just brush yourself off (fix your hair haha) and keep moving forward?

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There has been many times in my life where I just felt like I was caught in one big wind storm. Nothing was going right no matter how hard I tried. Toxic people kept coming into my life that just wouldn’t help and they would knock me off course and I wouldn’t know how to get back on the right course. As that kept happening I just felt like I was drowning.

It is such a scary feeling when you just want to give up. When I was younger and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I just wanted to give up. I had so much going on at the time, and now I had to deal with that? It just became too overwhelming and I wanted to just give up. I did NOT care at all what I did or what life was going to bring me. At that point I figured my life was screwed up either way forever that there was no point in going out and trying to find happiness or to even fight the fight of crawling out of the dark hole I was in. I just did not care. Period.

However that’s when I came across the movie “Meet The Robinsons” (You’ll find out more about that movie in my last post “My Favorite 13 Movies) In the entire movie one sentence really stood out to me, “Keep Moving Forward”. I realized that no matter what happens in my life , I just have to keep moving forward because eventually I could get to my happy place. And I did which took YEARS. All I had to do was keep going.

So my advice to you, is Keep Moving Forward. No matter how hard it gets, no matter how challenging this life and world can get, I PROMISE you it does get better. It might not get better right at this very moment but it will. Don’t give up. Hang on. Hold on tight. Fight for it. Fight for that happy ending because it will come.  I would never imagine my life where it is right now a few years ago. If you told me I would of laughed. But I am so glad I didn’t give up because I wouldn’t of learned the things I’ve been taught. And most importantly I wouldn’t of learned who I really am. Hang on, I promise its worth it.

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Fitness Update #2……I joined what?!

Hi everyone! It’s time for another update. This week has been a interesting week when it comes to my fitness. But I will go ahead and just start from the beginning with my assessment I received on Tuesday April 10th at Youfit.

Talk about EYE OPENER!!! 

I went in being SO nervous. Honestly I felt even embarrassed. I have noticed changes of course when it comes to me wearing my clothes but it really ALL becomes reality when you see the numbers. I’m sure some of you would say don’t focus on the numbers, But this is honestly the most I have EVER weighed.  So after checking my weight and also my Body fat %, I became very stressed out. I felt my depression trying to creep in. I felt completely defeated. I felt as if it was WAY too late to make a change. I felt that I had to accept that my body will always be like this now. I promise you I’m not trying to be “over dramatic” but I’ve always been someone who struggles with my confidence and body image. So it was just a bad combination that night. When I left the gym I had to run to the store. I picked up some produce and also some chocolate. That is my go to thing. I was just feeling so depressed and defeated.

142fb9d91b0a914f0a7b1499d7ffa1e8Through following other people on Instagram, I’ve known for awhile now about a fitness program. Its through a app called “SWEAT” and it’s by Kayla Itsines. I’ve heard and seen from others how much its helped them. So I went ahead and reached out to some of those people and I decided that this could possibly work for ME. Going with the app would of actually been cheaper for me in the long run than paying for a Personal Trainer. Also this app would work for me especially when my stomach problems flair up. If I went with a Personal Trainer I could actually lose those sessions that I paid for if I can’t show up. With my stomach issues the way they are, I have NO idea when exactly it will flair. So I have learned in my life to think way ahead for the “Just in case”.


So the VERY next day, I took the next step and signed up for the Program. This program plans out all of your workouts, Gives you meal ideas along with a grocery list as well. There is also a forum where you can post messages if you have any questions and also be able to reach out to others who are doing this too. There were a few different programs to choose from. Since I need to lose some weight, I choose the program that would help me do that. And once I achieve that, I have other programs to choose from on this app that I would be able to do. Its all included.  Now I am the type of person that if I’m going to start something NEW it has to be on a Monday. To me Mondays are FRESH starts. ACS-0044.JPG Ironically, It showed me that my Program would start MONDAY (April 16th)! I was so excited. I went out and purchased this book of hers, to help me with more meal plans since I do have to watch what I eat with my stomach. Now if anyone knows me, they know I DONT cook!! HAHA. Its true. So if I EVER get a cookbook, It needs to be fun like with bright colors, big pictures, EASY and I mean EASY recipes. I get very overwhelmed when it comes to cookbooks and recipes.  (Just ask my Mom haha)

I start the program tomorrow, but just from exploring the app, purchasing this book I really feel like this program was made for ME and works for MY needs. Even if there is a day I can’t make it to the gym, I can do some of the exercises at home. I literally have no reason NOT to work out.


17cdc5af915c91e441d235c712d4e094So like I mentioned, the app has all your workouts planned for you each day each week. Her book is also the same way. It has a week by week day by day meal plan for you. It’s SIMPLE and that’s exactly what I need. So I sat down and planned out my meals for the week and made a grocery list of what I needed. Then my Mom and I sat down and went through it and eliminated things we already had. After doing that I went to my local health food store “Sprouts” and went to shopping. I had things on my list that I never had before and some things I’ve never even heard of before. It became like a scavenger hunt and I had SO MUCH FUN! I felt a level of excitement and happiness I’ve never really felt before. I was actually already feeling proud of myself for the progress I was making there. I was able to find everything I needed and I got everything pretty much completely organic.  Now the next biggest task I’d have to face was “Meal Prepping” for the week.

SHOUT OUT to my Mom for literally helping me do this. We spent most of the day today in the kitchen Meal Prepping. A few times I was feeling overwhelmed but she was patient with me and we made it happen.

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This is just some of the things that I bought. My shopping cart was SO colorful I loved it. So much of what I bought was Clean, Organic and just wholesome food. I even had to buy “Fish Sauce”! I didn’t even know that existed till finding this book. I’m super excited to try it though!

 

One of the things we made were these “Spinach & Feta Egg Muffins” for breakfast. I need something light in the mornings because if I eat too soon after I wake up, It will mess with my stomach. Also I needed something that was easy and quick to grab if I was short on time. Most of my breakfasts wilACS-0045.JPGl be either smoothies or something like this that is quick and easy to grab. It was extremely easy to make, however it took us 2 times to get it right. First time we made it, I only put the spinach and Feta on the bottom and didn’t mix it in. Also the recipe asked for large eggs and I had small eggs, so I didn’t use enough egg and it was dry. I kept telling my Mom I was going to remake it. I don’t think she believed me until I grabbed everything out again and was like I HAVE to get this right! Just trying again made me happy because beforehand I would of just given up and said forget it. But second time around we mixed in the spinach and feta and one extra egg. And let me tell you, its SO delicious!! This is one of my favorites so far.

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Also in her book, She covers desserts. Now I have a HUGE sweet tooth so I gotta have my desserts! Haha. So today My Mom and I made two different ones. Lemon Pie Bliss Balls and Choc-Mint Bliss Balls. Each had only about four ingredients and are SO healthy. Honestly the Chocolate ones taste like Thin Mints. I don’t like really like lemon flavored things or coconut but I have to say, they were AMAZING. So good! I could eat the whole plate if I wanted to. And the nice thing about these desserts, Is that I didn’t feel so guilty eating them. They are so healthy that it doesn’t give you that guilty feeling. Also one of the really nice things about this book, is that it doesn’t take a lot of time to prepare or to actually make the recipes. Its so quick, easy, and so simple! Its really like its made for ME!

ACS-0048.JPGI’m really excited to keep going with the meal prepping and also trying out all sorts of new food. Also its a whole other journey I’m on trying to learn to cook and to figure out what exactly works for me in the kitchen. All I know so far is that I need to have patience with myself, and to realize that it won’t all change over night. Not my weight, not my cooking, nothing. It will take time, and that is perfectly ok.


Also I gotta be honest with you guys with TWO things. On Friday night, I went out with one of my Good Friends to a movie. I decided I was going to get a Coke. I just wanted to try it again and see if I would even like it. I barely had ANY of it. It didn’t taste good what so ever and the little amount I DID drink, made my heart feel like it was going to explode. I did not like how it made me feel. Its safe to say that I’m 99.9% sure my coke drinking days are OVER!!

Also, I hate admitting this but I told you all that I was going to be completely real with you guys. I’ve slacked off with my 21 day Planking Challenge. Ahhhh! It drives me crazy that I slacked off with doing that. BUT I decided that I’m going to try again starting tomorrow. Just remember to keep trying no matter what. I had a friend of mine ask me if I was still doing it. I told him “No but that I was going to just start over and that at first if you don’t succeed to just try again. And that I wasn’t going to just quit”. That’s something that I hope everyone remembers…. Just keep trying!!

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