Keep Moving Forward

If I told you how many times I have started to write this blog and then erased it, you’d be surprised. I had a few ideas to talk about, but I kept coming back to one certain topic. “Giving up”. How many of us at some point in our life’s just wanted to give up?  We felt like no matter what we did it just wasn’t getting us anywhere? That you couldn’t catch a break because one thing after another kept happening to you? That you kept putting good out into the world only to receive more negative? I HAVE! 

Life can sometimes beat you up like the wind does on a windy day. Where you are doing everything in your power to hold on, to plant your feet and to ride out that wind. After all is said and done, everything is just a mess. Do you give up when that happens or do you just brush yourself off (fix your hair haha) and keep moving forward?

2e8346d371353834d0490b7e370964be

There has been many times in my life where I just felt like I was caught in one big wind storm. Nothing was going right no matter how hard I tried. Toxic people kept coming into my life that just wouldn’t help and they would knock me off course and I wouldn’t know how to get back on the right course. As that kept happening I just felt like I was drowning.

It is such a scary feeling when you just want to give up. When I was younger and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I just wanted to give up. I had so much going on at the time, and now I had to deal with that? It just became too overwhelming and I wanted to just give up. I did NOT care at all what I did or what life was going to bring me. At that point I figured my life was screwed up either way forever that there was no point in going out and trying to find happiness or to even fight the fight of crawling out of the dark hole I was in. I just did not care. Period.

However that’s when I came across the movie “Meet The Robinsons” (You’ll find out more about that movie in my last post “My Favorite 13 Movies) In the entire movie one sentence really stood out to me, “Keep Moving Forward”. I realized that no matter what happens in my life , I just have to keep moving forward because eventually I could get to my happy place. And I did which took YEARS. All I had to do was keep going.

So my advice to you, is Keep Moving Forward. No matter how hard it gets, no matter how challenging this life and world can get, I PROMISE you it does get better. It might not get better right at this very moment but it will. Don’t give up. Hang on. Hold on tight. Fight for it. Fight for that happy ending because it will come.  I would never imagine my life where it is right now a few years ago. If you told me I would of laughed. But I am so glad I didn’t give up because I wouldn’t of learned the things I’ve been taught. And most importantly I wouldn’t of learned who I really am. Hang on, I promise its worth it.

65222b587cefc8b7088f166a9f0f103e

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fitness Update #2……I joined what?!

Hi everyone! It’s time for another update. This week has been a interesting week when it comes to my fitness. But I will go ahead and just start from the beginning with my assessment I received on Tuesday April 10th at Youfit.

Talk about EYE OPENER!!! 

I went in being SO nervous. Honestly I felt even embarrassed. I have noticed changes of course when it comes to me wearing my clothes but it really ALL becomes reality when you see the numbers. I’m sure some of you would say don’t focus on the numbers, But this is honestly the most I have EVER weighed.  So after checking my weight and also my Body fat %, I became very stressed out. I felt my depression trying to creep in. I felt completely defeated. I felt as if it was WAY too late to make a change. I felt that I had to accept that my body will always be like this now. I promise you I’m not trying to be “over dramatic” but I’ve always been someone who struggles with my confidence and body image. So it was just a bad combination that night. When I left the gym I had to run to the store. I picked up some produce and also some chocolate. That is my go to thing. I was just feeling so depressed and defeated.

142fb9d91b0a914f0a7b1499d7ffa1e8Through following other people on Instagram, I’ve known for awhile now about a fitness program. Its through a app called “SWEAT” and it’s by Kayla Itsines. I’ve heard and seen from others how much its helped them. So I went ahead and reached out to some of those people and I decided that this could possibly work for ME. Going with the app would of actually been cheaper for me in the long run than paying for a Personal Trainer. Also this app would work for me especially when my stomach problems flair up. If I went with a Personal Trainer I could actually lose those sessions that I paid for if I can’t show up. With my stomach issues the way they are, I have NO idea when exactly it will flair. So I have learned in my life to think way ahead for the “Just in case”.


So the VERY next day, I took the next step and signed up for the Program. This program plans out all of your workouts, Gives you meal ideas along with a grocery list as well. There is also a forum where you can post messages if you have any questions and also be able to reach out to others who are doing this too. There were a few different programs to choose from. Since I need to lose some weight, I choose the program that would help me do that. And once I achieve that, I have other programs to choose from on this app that I would be able to do. Its all included.  Now I am the type of person that if I’m going to start something NEW it has to be on a Monday. To me Mondays are FRESH starts. ACS-0044.JPG Ironically, It showed me that my Program would start MONDAY (April 16th)! I was so excited. I went out and purchased this book of hers, to help me with more meal plans since I do have to watch what I eat with my stomach. Now if anyone knows me, they know I DONT cook!! HAHA. Its true. So if I EVER get a cookbook, It needs to be fun like with bright colors, big pictures, EASY and I mean EASY recipes. I get very overwhelmed when it comes to cookbooks and recipes.  (Just ask my Mom haha)

I start the program tomorrow, but just from exploring the app, purchasing this book I really feel like this program was made for ME and works for MY needs. Even if there is a day I can’t make it to the gym, I can do some of the exercises at home. I literally have no reason NOT to work out.


17cdc5af915c91e441d235c712d4e094So like I mentioned, the app has all your workouts planned for you each day each week. Her book is also the same way. It has a week by week day by day meal plan for you. It’s SIMPLE and that’s exactly what I need. So I sat down and planned out my meals for the week and made a grocery list of what I needed. Then my Mom and I sat down and went through it and eliminated things we already had. After doing that I went to my local health food store “Sprouts” and went to shopping. I had things on my list that I never had before and some things I’ve never even heard of before. It became like a scavenger hunt and I had SO MUCH FUN! I felt a level of excitement and happiness I’ve never really felt before. I was actually already feeling proud of myself for the progress I was making there. I was able to find everything I needed and I got everything pretty much completely organic.  Now the next biggest task I’d have to face was “Meal Prepping” for the week.

SHOUT OUT to my Mom for literally helping me do this. We spent most of the day today in the kitchen Meal Prepping. A few times I was feeling overwhelmed but she was patient with me and we made it happen.

IMG-7823.JPG

This is just some of the things that I bought. My shopping cart was SO colorful I loved it. So much of what I bought was Clean, Organic and just wholesome food. I even had to buy “Fish Sauce”! I didn’t even know that existed till finding this book. I’m super excited to try it though!

 

One of the things we made were these “Spinach & Feta Egg Muffins” for breakfast. I need something light in the mornings because if I eat too soon after I wake up, It will mess with my stomach. Also I needed something that was easy and quick to grab if I was short on time. Most of my breakfasts wilACS-0045.JPGl be either smoothies or something like this that is quick and easy to grab. It was extremely easy to make, however it took us 2 times to get it right. First time we made it, I only put the spinach and Feta on the bottom and didn’t mix it in. Also the recipe asked for large eggs and I had small eggs, so I didn’t use enough egg and it was dry. I kept telling my Mom I was going to remake it. I don’t think she believed me until I grabbed everything out again and was like I HAVE to get this right! Just trying again made me happy because beforehand I would of just given up and said forget it. But second time around we mixed in the spinach and feta and one extra egg. And let me tell you, its SO delicious!! This is one of my favorites so far.

IMG-7834

Also in her book, She covers desserts. Now I have a HUGE sweet tooth so I gotta have my desserts! Haha. So today My Mom and I made two different ones. Lemon Pie Bliss Balls and Choc-Mint Bliss Balls. Each had only about four ingredients and are SO healthy. Honestly the Chocolate ones taste like Thin Mints. I don’t like really like lemon flavored things or coconut but I have to say, they were AMAZING. So good! I could eat the whole plate if I wanted to. And the nice thing about these desserts, Is that I didn’t feel so guilty eating them. They are so healthy that it doesn’t give you that guilty feeling. Also one of the really nice things about this book, is that it doesn’t take a lot of time to prepare or to actually make the recipes. Its so quick, easy, and so simple! Its really like its made for ME!

ACS-0048.JPGI’m really excited to keep going with the meal prepping and also trying out all sorts of new food. Also its a whole other journey I’m on trying to learn to cook and to figure out what exactly works for me in the kitchen. All I know so far is that I need to have patience with myself, and to realize that it won’t all change over night. Not my weight, not my cooking, nothing. It will take time, and that is perfectly ok.


Also I gotta be honest with you guys with TWO things. On Friday night, I went out with one of my Good Friends to a movie. I decided I was going to get a Coke. I just wanted to try it again and see if I would even like it. I barely had ANY of it. It didn’t taste good what so ever and the little amount I DID drink, made my heart feel like it was going to explode. I did not like how it made me feel. Its safe to say that I’m 99.9% sure my coke drinking days are OVER!!

Also, I hate admitting this but I told you all that I was going to be completely real with you guys. I’ve slacked off with my 21 day Planking Challenge. Ahhhh! It drives me crazy that I slacked off with doing that. BUT I decided that I’m going to try again starting tomorrow. Just remember to keep trying no matter what. I had a friend of mine ask me if I was still doing it. I told him “No but that I was going to just start over and that at first if you don’t succeed to just try again. And that I wasn’t going to just quit”. That’s something that I hope everyone remembers…. Just keep trying!!

737c2400e26163888294578642c52f7f.jpgxoxoxoxoxo