Blog Relaunch!

Welcome Loves! It’s been a long time since I’ve last written that I decided it was time to dust off the keys and start again! I had a vision in my mind of how I wanted things to go and let’s just say, nothing ever goes as planned.

I realized that once I started this Journey that I really never had a “niche” and I was often finding myself quickly discouraged. I became overwhelmed and just felt like I was all over the place. So I stopped. I went back n forth constantly in my mind whether or not I should continue or just stop.

The thing is, I couldn’t get this blog out of my mind. I couldn’t shake the feeling that I just couldn’t give up. I couldn’t just let it go. I just knew this was something I had to do. So I reached out and got some advice on what my next step should be.

So after doing so, I realized what my “niche” or “theme” should be.

I want this blog to be about my Journey. My Journey hasn’t been easy. But I’ve wanted to share it in hopes to inspire others.

My blog will be about Self Love and Self Care. I’ll also be covering Mental Health, Fitness, and awareness to different causes.

Along the way I will be sharing my challenges with my Mental Health of Depression, Anxiety Disorder and PTSD. I will be sharing my story.

EVERYONES STORY DESERVES TO BE TOLD

I’ll be sharing uplifting messages and quotes to help all of us struggling to keep going. I will share ways of Self Love and Self Care. Im also going to be sharing my fitness journey. Being comfortable in your own body to me is a form of self love & self care. I haven’t felt confident in my body in so long and it’s time that I make a change. I’d love if you came along with me.

I asked on my Instagram for everyone to share an awareness that means something to them. There are so many out there that don’t get enough attention. There is such a stigma with Mental Illness that I want to break that. I want to break ALL stigmas and share awareness.

I have decided to share awareness by making bracelets. I have researched their awareness colors and I’ve added a small charm to them. Some that I have already done are

  • Mental Illness
  • Domestic Violence
  • Autism
  • Child/ Teen Sexual Assault & Abuse.
  • Lupus
  • Fibromyalgia

I would love if you have a Awareness or Cause that means something to you or a loved one to please share and let me know and I will make as many bracelets you’d like. There is no charge to these. I want to break ALL stigmas and spread awareness.

Thank you for coming along with me on this Journey. There is so much hatred in the world and I don’t want anyone to confront it on their own. Battling Mental Illness has enough darkness in that alone. I want to create a safe place for us to share our stories, to share our struggles and to break all stigmas.

10 Quotes To Keep Going

Welcome back Loves!! So, I’ve always been the type of person who just absolutely LOVES quotes! I could spend hours looking them up. And thanks to Pinterest, that has happened on many occasions. I often find myself connecting with quotes because I simply can not find the right words to explain how I feel sometimes. Don’t you just hate that? You really want to express how you feel, but the words just won’t come out?

• With struggling with Depression and especially Anxiety, I would constantly be looking up quotes to help me keep going. Family and Friends would give me advice or encouraging words, but I would always find myself looking up Motivational Quotes or Strength and Faith Quotes and it would really really help me.

So down below, I am going to share with you all 10 of my favorite quotes that has helped me to keep going. I hope that whoever is reading this will be able to use these as daily reminders when things get though. Because trust me they will, but you CAN and WILL get through it.

10. This is so true. Just the littlest step can lead you in the direction towards something greater. 9. Even if you don’t believe in God, Life will always work it’s self out. You just have to HOLD ON and you will see everything fall into place.

8. Sometimes when things are just NOT working in our favor, we need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. Sometimes we are the ones who need to make the change for things to get better.

7. Now this one is a GOOD one. We can not and I repeat can not let our troubles break us. No matter how hard it gets, you have to remember life still goes on so things will change. Don’t let these troubles define you. Stay strong.

6. This quote here I’ve had for YEARS. It’s really all about just making small changes and really everything will fall into place.

5. Oh yes, be gentle with yourself! I would often beat myself up because I would feel like I was losing control of everything. Just be gentle with yourself, you really are doing the BEST you can.

4. Yes. Be Your Own Kind Of Beautiful. I always thought I had to change who I was because of some struggles I had to go through. But those struggles are apart of me. Apart of MY story. They made me WHO I am. So, I’m my own kind of beautiful.

3. Storms really don’t last forever. If you told me this years ago, I’d laugh. I would tell you “Yeah right, things will NEVER get better”. Guess what? They DO.

2. I don’t think anyone is ever really “broken”. So even when you feel broken, just remember “You grow through what you go through”. So no matter what, you can still light up the world.

1. YOU ARE ENOUGH. No matter what happens. No matter what life throws at you, you are enough. There is no one else on this earth like YOU. The world NEEDS you. Please always remember YOU are enough!

Fitness Update #3.. Mind Over Matter.

I have one word to describe this week. WOW!!! 

I made it through the first week of SWEAT by Kayla Itsines! This week was defiantly a challenge.  I had my fair shares of ups and downs. Of wanting to quit and give up. I learned a few things however during this week one.

  1. I am capable of more than what I think.
  2. That it’s not going to go PERFECT to the T, but it’s ok that it doesn’t.
  3. My results will differ from other people in the SWEAT community.
  4.  It takes time and patience.

On Monday, the first day I was suppose to work out my legs. I did. But I quickly started to beat myself up because I couldn’t do all the exercises perfectly. And I couldn’t do all the reps either. I started to feel very nauseas and I thought for sure I was going to be sick. But most of all my ribs started really hurting me. (For those of you who don’t know, back in Oct/Nov I fractured a couple ribs when I was really sick with my lung). I felt so discouraged. I wanted to cry. I felt like a failure because I couldn’t even finish day ONE. I started to regret my decision of purchasing this program.

I laid on my Yoga mat literally talking to myself. Talking out loud how much of a mistake a made. How much I was a failure. Then it hit me. I was able to do more than the day before. The day before and many days before hand I wasn’t even exercising. But the little I was able to accomplish, was more than I ever did before. I immediately snapped out of it. I had already made PROGRESS.   I needed to be MORE proud of myself. And I was. I knew I could keep going. Even though others were able to finish it 100% on day one, it was perfectly ok that I couldn’t. As long as I kept trying and moving.

bf2dc78fae8af5748127e35388f0f860.jpgAs the week went on, I was able to complete ALL of my exercises. I noticed by day three, that I was mentally and physically getting stronger. Moments when it became really hard, I would just talk out loud to myself that I could do it. Positive self talk really does make a difference! I wanted to do everything so perfectly. To follow all of my exercises and meal plans to a T. I learned quickly that it just wasn’t going to happen and that it was ok. That I needed to accept that. There was days where I didn’t have time to put my lunch together or my breakfast, so I would make smoothies and for lunch I would order something because I was at work and I made sure I ordered something that was healthy and with a lot of vegetables. One thing I’ve noticed this week is that I’m starting to crave more fruits and vegetables. That is something I’ve never done before. I guess the more you eat healthy and clean the more your body will crave what is good for you.

So even though I wasn’t able to eat all of my meals that was planned, I was still able to make healthy choices to get food. I was able to finish all of my exercises this week which makes me so happy. I honestly thought it was going to be a breeze jumping back into working out. I use to do it all the time back in the day, and I was a runner so I thought for sure it would be a piece of cake. I was wrong. A lot has happened to my body since then and it is taking me a little longer. And guess what?! THAT IS PERFECTLY OKAY as long as I keep trying and pushing myself. I need to have patience with myself and take it one day at a time. I was beating myself up because I would see other people’s  “Transformation Pictures” and I would start to doubt myself and think I wasn’t going to get to that point because I wasn’t able to complete all the exercises to a T.  Even though I had to modify a couple workouts because I have a bad back, I made sure I kept moving and I was able to do it.unnamed.jpg

So I am excited to say…… I worked out for 6 days STRAIGHT and it felt SO SO good. Don’t mind my goofy picture I took Saturday after I finished my 6th workout. I was so happy. I was on cloud 9 and just so proud of myself. I am so glad I didn’t give up and that I kept pushing myself. I still have a long road in front of me to get to the point of where I want to be. So now onto WEEK TWO!!

 

 

 

 

xoxo

 

Fitness Update #2……I joined what?!

Hi everyone! It’s time for another update. This week has been a interesting week when it comes to my fitness. But I will go ahead and just start from the beginning with my assessment I received on Tuesday April 10th at Youfit.

Talk about EYE OPENER!!! 

I went in being SO nervous. Honestly I felt even embarrassed. I have noticed changes of course when it comes to me wearing my clothes but it really ALL becomes reality when you see the numbers. I’m sure some of you would say don’t focus on the numbers, But this is honestly the most I have EVER weighed.  So after checking my weight and also my Body fat %, I became very stressed out. I felt my depression trying to creep in. I felt completely defeated. I felt as if it was WAY too late to make a change. I felt that I had to accept that my body will always be like this now. I promise you I’m not trying to be “over dramatic” but I’ve always been someone who struggles with my confidence and body image. So it was just a bad combination that night. When I left the gym I had to run to the store. I picked up some produce and also some chocolate. That is my go to thing. I was just feeling so depressed and defeated.

142fb9d91b0a914f0a7b1499d7ffa1e8Through following other people on Instagram, I’ve known for awhile now about a fitness program. Its through a app called “SWEAT” and it’s by Kayla Itsines. I’ve heard and seen from others how much its helped them. So I went ahead and reached out to some of those people and I decided that this could possibly work for ME. Going with the app would of actually been cheaper for me in the long run than paying for a Personal Trainer. Also this app would work for me especially when my stomach problems flair up. If I went with a Personal Trainer I could actually lose those sessions that I paid for if I can’t show up. With my stomach issues the way they are, I have NO idea when exactly it will flair. So I have learned in my life to think way ahead for the “Just in case”.


So the VERY next day, I took the next step and signed up for the Program. This program plans out all of your workouts, Gives you meal ideas along with a grocery list as well. There is also a forum where you can post messages if you have any questions and also be able to reach out to others who are doing this too. There were a few different programs to choose from. Since I need to lose some weight, I choose the program that would help me do that. And once I achieve that, I have other programs to choose from on this app that I would be able to do. Its all included.  Now I am the type of person that if I’m going to start something NEW it has to be on a Monday. To me Mondays are FRESH starts. ACS-0044.JPG Ironically, It showed me that my Program would start MONDAY (April 16th)! I was so excited. I went out and purchased this book of hers, to help me with more meal plans since I do have to watch what I eat with my stomach. Now if anyone knows me, they know I DONT cook!! HAHA. Its true. So if I EVER get a cookbook, It needs to be fun like with bright colors, big pictures, EASY and I mean EASY recipes. I get very overwhelmed when it comes to cookbooks and recipes.  (Just ask my Mom haha)

I start the program tomorrow, but just from exploring the app, purchasing this book I really feel like this program was made for ME and works for MY needs. Even if there is a day I can’t make it to the gym, I can do some of the exercises at home. I literally have no reason NOT to work out.


17cdc5af915c91e441d235c712d4e094So like I mentioned, the app has all your workouts planned for you each day each week. Her book is also the same way. It has a week by week day by day meal plan for you. It’s SIMPLE and that’s exactly what I need. So I sat down and planned out my meals for the week and made a grocery list of what I needed. Then my Mom and I sat down and went through it and eliminated things we already had. After doing that I went to my local health food store “Sprouts” and went to shopping. I had things on my list that I never had before and some things I’ve never even heard of before. It became like a scavenger hunt and I had SO MUCH FUN! I felt a level of excitement and happiness I’ve never really felt before. I was actually already feeling proud of myself for the progress I was making there. I was able to find everything I needed and I got everything pretty much completely organic.  Now the next biggest task I’d have to face was “Meal Prepping” for the week.

SHOUT OUT to my Mom for literally helping me do this. We spent most of the day today in the kitchen Meal Prepping. A few times I was feeling overwhelmed but she was patient with me and we made it happen.

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This is just some of the things that I bought. My shopping cart was SO colorful I loved it. So much of what I bought was Clean, Organic and just wholesome food. I even had to buy “Fish Sauce”! I didn’t even know that existed till finding this book. I’m super excited to try it though!

 

One of the things we made were these “Spinach & Feta Egg Muffins” for breakfast. I need something light in the mornings because if I eat too soon after I wake up, It will mess with my stomach. Also I needed something that was easy and quick to grab if I was short on time. Most of my breakfasts wilACS-0045.JPGl be either smoothies or something like this that is quick and easy to grab. It was extremely easy to make, however it took us 2 times to get it right. First time we made it, I only put the spinach and Feta on the bottom and didn’t mix it in. Also the recipe asked for large eggs and I had small eggs, so I didn’t use enough egg and it was dry. I kept telling my Mom I was going to remake it. I don’t think she believed me until I grabbed everything out again and was like I HAVE to get this right! Just trying again made me happy because beforehand I would of just given up and said forget it. But second time around we mixed in the spinach and feta and one extra egg. And let me tell you, its SO delicious!! This is one of my favorites so far.

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Also in her book, She covers desserts. Now I have a HUGE sweet tooth so I gotta have my desserts! Haha. So today My Mom and I made two different ones. Lemon Pie Bliss Balls and Choc-Mint Bliss Balls. Each had only about four ingredients and are SO healthy. Honestly the Chocolate ones taste like Thin Mints. I don’t like really like lemon flavored things or coconut but I have to say, they were AMAZING. So good! I could eat the whole plate if I wanted to. And the nice thing about these desserts, Is that I didn’t feel so guilty eating them. They are so healthy that it doesn’t give you that guilty feeling. Also one of the really nice things about this book, is that it doesn’t take a lot of time to prepare or to actually make the recipes. Its so quick, easy, and so simple! Its really like its made for ME!

ACS-0048.JPGI’m really excited to keep going with the meal prepping and also trying out all sorts of new food. Also its a whole other journey I’m on trying to learn to cook and to figure out what exactly works for me in the kitchen. All I know so far is that I need to have patience with myself, and to realize that it won’t all change over night. Not my weight, not my cooking, nothing. It will take time, and that is perfectly ok.


Also I gotta be honest with you guys with TWO things. On Friday night, I went out with one of my Good Friends to a movie. I decided I was going to get a Coke. I just wanted to try it again and see if I would even like it. I barely had ANY of it. It didn’t taste good what so ever and the little amount I DID drink, made my heart feel like it was going to explode. I did not like how it made me feel. Its safe to say that I’m 99.9% sure my coke drinking days are OVER!!

Also, I hate admitting this but I told you all that I was going to be completely real with you guys. I’ve slacked off with my 21 day Planking Challenge. Ahhhh! It drives me crazy that I slacked off with doing that. BUT I decided that I’m going to try again starting tomorrow. Just remember to keep trying no matter what. I had a friend of mine ask me if I was still doing it. I told him “No but that I was going to just start over and that at first if you don’t succeed to just try again. And that I wasn’t going to just quit”. That’s something that I hope everyone remembers…. Just keep trying!!

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